I cried in her office, I felt like such a fucking hypochondriac and I am so sick of having problems with everything. I have my Mmedical this afternoon though, so hopefully feeling extra shit will help with that at least... :(
I will speak to my gp, and depending on what she says I may go to pals too. She did not get me to push, nor examine me standing up, just inserted a speculum and got me to cough. I said if there is no problem, is there nothing i can do to help it (arthritis in my hands and wrists makes digital removal v painful). I know there are pessarries/rings etc that could help with this, or even physio, but she said the only thing that would help a rectocele ("which you dont have") is surgery. In getting all upset I lost my nerve re everything i know. She didnt even ask about my labours. I need to make sure i write stuff down so i dont forget anything...
She told me over and over again that my GP was WRONG to diagnose it, that any problems were caused by the weight/effect on muscles of being pregnant and that it also shouldnt be diagnosed less than 3months pp. I pointed out that I was four weeks pregnant with DS2 at the time, he was hardly heavy, and i was 10m pp from DS1. I wrote it off for those 10m that it was normal, i was just recovering. She said it is normal for my vag/bowel to be "lax" to the point of tampons falling out, and that having to digitally assist is caused purely by constipation, not a fault in the wall.
Rambling a bit, hope this makes sense
I told her I am suspected hypermobile, I told her I had a inguinal hernia as a toddler, she did not comment on either.
I told her I had a rectocele and she told me off for telling her what it was, said describe your problems and I will tell you what it is. I wonder now if she was determined that she would find I was "wrong" after that.
Oh thats the other thing, I have pain during sex, she said this can never be caused by a prolapse. I am far from an expert, but dr google seems to disagree.
(have had to miss bite out, but hope you can get the jist, hands too sore to type it all again)