Fighting Our Way Back Up - the depression list thread!

[MathsMadMummy]

Thanks to ToccataAndFudge for the name

Right, so this is where those of us with depression can write our lists of daily achievements!

...hopefully tomorrow's list will be better than today's...

Thanks TF. I am glad you had a nice time with your friend that is so more important than ironing )

I am really happy about the tribunal and am planing to enjoy that one. Shall be interesting to see how a company defends themselves when asked why exactly did you the day after my late husbands funeral send me an email with a conversation in it which stated you believed I used his death as an excuse to not attend a meeting !

sounds great LM!

Marking is making me want to scoop my own brains out with a spoon frankly :S

Tc don't know what is up but I am smoking like the proverbial chimney atm...

absolutely - the ironing sat very quietly (if a little imposing ) in the corner of the room while we drank lots of coffee and our youngest DC played together.

I can't believe your old employer did that (and )

TF there was a lot more than that, but that is the one thing that sticks in my head the most and the one I want to throw in their face.

Alle - marking sounds horrific although you have reminded me that I have done nothing about my mit circs form or even looked at any of my coursework for the entire year :S

I managed to get paint today to finish painting the hall but the actual painting will be waiting for another day.

My ironing is still sitting in the living room has been since monday.

holy god LM, your employers

you have had beyond a lot to deal with surrounding the death haven't you. I would say time you had a break, but there's coursework to be done!

TC I never iron, we all just wear crumpled clothes

Lol Alle - In order to do said coursework I need to email my lecturers and ask for it!!!! Shall be interesting but I need to have all the essays submitted before the subject boards sit to prove I am capable of doing the work which would only leave 4 practicals which have to be done on site at uni and my excuse is childcare for them

If the work thing does go ahead I shall let you know which paper it will be in believe me it makes for interesting reading, all I can is it is never a good idea to touch a single parent female with a disability and whose son has a disability before you dot the i's and cross the t's.

I had a phone call on the way to collect ds from the recruitment people, the people I interviewed with this morning want to see me again tomorrow fingers crossed this could be it

hoorah!!

Now to finish writing out the application form which is some stupid length about 40 pages or such. But fingers crossed for tomorrow morning and I might have some really good news to celebrate I hope.

Sleep and motivation both gone AWOL......did get some sleep last night - but it was awful sleep, really restless.......lots of dreams (I remember they're weren't great dreams but thankfully the sort that you don't actually remember once you've woken up properly).

Nothing done this morning apart from DS3 dressed

Going to nip to the loo (yes I'm sitting doing pelvic floor exercises and have been for AGES) because even the motivation to get up and go up stairs for that has gone.

Grab a coffee (another one)

Then try and get myself into the shower

I'm feeling reasonably "ok" in myself, just tired and no motivation.

Hate days like this when nothing is really bothering me but can't do anything anyhow

Well I have been to my second job interview. Went clothes shopping didnt get much tbh
Have come home and am watching a movie knackered.

Got my fingers crossed for you LittleMarshmallow

Today I started back on my ADs but managed to take my DD to a playdate at softplay with a mum from nursery who I only know in the passing. Worked up the courage to speak to her last week as my DD has been talking about her DDs since starting nursery. Am proud of myself, would've found an excuse not to go a few months ago. Also did a session in the gym with my trainer, felt better for it

Thanks MadLenny. I got the job the guy called this afternoon. Well done to you to for organising softplay

My mil offered to have ds so the lodger and I went our for pizza. Never did get around to any chores today so that is tomorrows task

Morning All,

How is everyone? I am feeling really good, I got a long lie as ds is at my mils have managed to put the washing on so that is the start of one thing.

Am going to try and do the following
Transfer money to my bill paying account for bills.
Put ironing away
Hoover the house (I hate this one as it takes forever)
Collect ds at some point
Put the washing away
Have something to eat
Maybe try and finish painting the downstairs hall.

so glad you are feeling good atm and about the job!

I am feeling grim. PMS week is setting in and I just got a definite diagnose of Bipolar II Disorder. I'm kind of relieved in a way; but in another it just feels like a flaw- I'm a madwoman! Guess I would deal with it better at other times of the month.

I'm just in my weepy stage atm but can't cry properly.

Loads of marking to do, no flipping concentration though!

Sending you a hug Alle. It sucks I have had several diagnosis in the past and although there is relief there is sadness too. It takes time to come to terms with it or at least for me.

My afternoon has turned crap trying to get a prescription for ad's has turned into a nightmare and I might be going off them cold turkey again. I have a really bad headache from not taking them and am not too sure what to do for the best. Am trying to just tackle the washing.

My mil called and she is keeping ds later so am sitting on the sofa watching tv might attack the chocolate shortly.

Urgh I get the headaches too. They have cut down my ADs in favour of mood stabilisers. I feel shaky and have no concentration, but that's nothing unusual. Just wish I felt calmer (the mood stabilisers are supposed to do that. grrr).

I feel like abandoning it all and going for a long walk in the Trossachs somewhere...

Why not take an hour or so out and go for a walk ? or have a bath?

Yeah I went cold turkey of the same type of ad's you are on and it is hard. Could you try reducing the dose slightly less than just now so maybe by only 5mg instead of 10mg etc?

yeah, I am going out now, been crying to sad lyrics again, it's not good...

Aww no. I do that too. Try and listen to less depressing music. If I lived closer I would drag you out for coffee.

I know, wish you lovely ladies were nearer...

sometimes it helps to cry it out eh but sometimes you get bogged down...x

Yeah I know. Its lonely up here too.

Although if you want to think about something different need to think about activities you guys want to do when you come up

What are you thinking of LM?

Need to be some serious outdoor action with 3 boys I reckon...
x

Alle - what about edinburgh zoo, science centre in Glasgow, strathclyde country park is nearby there is also soft play and woodland trail near the house?

all that sounds fabulous! :D