Fighting Our Way Back Up - the depression list thread!

[MathsMadMummy]

Thanks to ToccataAndFudge for the name

Right, so this is where those of us with depression can write our lists of daily achievements!

...hopefully tomorrow's list will be better than today's...

LM how did you manage today? hope you and B ok. Any more news from the gruesome twosome (the CPN/Hv)?

not much to report today in terms of achievements but it is such a gorgeous evening here, I am in a good mood...

Alle - I am doing ok b is at mils having fun. I have been to counselling and took b's flowers to the layby. I went shopping so bought b some new tops. Am going out for coffee in a bit with a friend . No news from those two so hopefully it will be fine.

I am glad you ar in a good mood. Do you have a date this weekend ?

hello all - sorry been AWOL support spookycharlotte who has had the most horrendous week.

Has kept my mind off my own problems at least

Going to do an hours blitz with the boys in a minute before they go to bed..........they've been bribed with pizza tonight and promise of park tomorrow................

yep lunch date tomorrow! Was supposed to see him this eve but he texted at 4 saying he was really suffering cos went to some media event and got trashed last night!! heheh well at least he's honest...

Is MiL OK LM? Must be v hard day for you all...

TC have not followed spookycharlotte's thread, msut read...

TC just read SC's thread, how awful for her but what a lovely thread has been set up to welcome her back! MN really is great isn't it despite the harsh posters sometimes.

Tc - I saw the thread and all you guys have been amazing with support and kindness .

Alle - lunch date sounds good. I have a dinner date tomorrow night. Mil and I now get on we didn't used to but have to for b's sake . When are your lovely boys coming back ?

boys are back at 5 tomorrow yay! Went round to see them with nanny this afternoon, ds2 saying he wanted to come back to my house but hey it won't be long.

ds1 really sad because his cat has gone missing, poor lad was crying so much saying he is worried about him being lost

xx

That's good about getting the boys tomorrow. I'm sorry about ds1's cat. Hopefully he/she will turn up.

Allegrageller for missing cat. I hope his cat turns up.

I know, he has 2 cats at his dad's and his 'boy cat' has been missing since this last night

Well I am having a very boring Friday evening...time for bed soon I think

Hi all

Sorry been a bit absent. Had quite a good day yesterday then got new memories just before falling asleep, slept badly, ds up partying again at 5.

work difficult - can't wait to finish a week today.

Tomorrow there is a clean-up day inside and out in the smallest of our two churches and my bible study/garden group is tackling the garden. So taking ds and his walking frame. He knows my group very well and lots of people from the small church too so they will all help keep an eye on him, plus dh wil turn up at some point.

Not much else planned. Soooo tense and tired.

Good morning all. Hope everyone is ok today. We're all up, breakfasted, and ready to get dressed. I'm listening to radio 4 on iplayer as my friend phoned up yesterday and asked David Cameron a question live on radio. So funny hearing a familiar voice on the radio!

Well, it's another day today.

Morning All,

BBL you are right today is another day, made it through yesterday now to tackle today. I took one of my sleeping tablets last was very weird but I did get sleep so that is the main thing. I do hate mornings though.

Not much planned for this morning I need to collect ds at some point then get ready for my date.

What does everyone else have planned?

Not much I don't think. DH is going to fix my friend's computer this morning. I would like to go into town with any number or no number of children who would like to come too (the thing about having all boys is that they hate shopping). This evening I'm going to another friennd's house for a girly night but as I've had sleeping issues I am nervous about the usual: will I sleep when I get back? Will I be knackered tomorrow? Will I panic about sleeping on Sunday? Sigh. I used to just take all these things in my stride. I should just let go and go with the flow like regular people do!

I might do some painting today (a painting as opposed to some random walls). I haven't done any painting since before DS3 - no time or inclination.

Evening Everyone,

How have you guys been?

Hello! I've been ok until today as I slept terribly last night. My state of mood is almost 100% dependent on my sleep! I went out last night, got back at 1am, and couldn't shut my excited brain down. So dragging myself through the day. I'm sure tomorrow will be better. How are you today LM?

hello all. Mood is not the best here but not terrible. I am missing the sunshine already! Mostly spent day doing mammoth shop. Have aggressively cleaned kitchen which is usually a bad sign and can feel self getting a bit snappy with boys. Hmm think my 2 weeks of PMS must be starting :S

ooh date LM- hope it's a good one.

BBL out til 1 am?! sounds vg but I feel your pain re. next day....

Today has been ok, been out for coffee and I bought another new pair of jeans.

Ds has been good but everything seems like hard work just now. I never got home either till around 1am and found ds in my bed so I got assaulted most of the night.

I am meant to be sitting two technical tests tonight but my brain is fried already so will have to do them first thing tomorrow morning.

Had a day of two halves, this morning was tough, I actually started crying during the service (thankfully - I think?) I'm pretty good at holding back the emotions in front of people so it wasn't a full on flow, was just really tough.

This afternoon I have had major blitz on the downstairs of the house, it's looking FAB (though I say so myself).

Only thing I have left to do this evening is mop the dining room, living room and kitchen floors!

Sounds vg TC congrats!

I don't know about you but sometimes it helps me to cry. Hard in public though I know.

In my worst phases I either couldnt' cry at all, or couldn't stop.

I know what you mean Alle about either crying or not, I spend a lot of time fighting not to cry or I can't stop

I am trying to work out if I should stop taking my ad's as my gp wasn't keen on writing another prescription for them, no reason I suppose but down to the care I have had makes me wonder if it is worth the time involved and maybe I would be ok off them (which even I know logically wont be good)

yeah I have been randomly changed to a 'mood stabiliser and taken off my 40mg a day citalopram which I think sounds dangerous tbh. I have loads of citalopram left and am still taking it, scared to come off

Alle - I have come off that cold turkey and the dosage was 10mg. I would definitely not recommend that experience to anyone.

Currently I am thinking screw it, you guys don't give a toss so I might as well stop taking them and deal with this myself as asking for help clearly has made things in my situation worse

How is everyone today? DH is late tonight and DS3 is being a nightmare. He must sense that I am coping with three by myself. I'd better go get him, crying. It's bathtime for the other two.