To think is this it?

[Isthisit33]

I go to work. I come home.

Then I go to work and come home.

Five days a week. Then weekends I sit.

No money to do anything, nothing I really want to do anyway. No one to do it with.

Sometimes I feel like even in jail I might have people to talk to.

Any chance you are based in London OP?

How are you doing this evening op?

The kindness you’ve shown is more than I deserve, it really is. Thank you.

No it's not. You deserve to be treated with kindness @Isthisit33 .

Your confidence is shot, isn't it?

I've actually been thinking about you today.

Starting a thread is a positive achievement (apart from the arsehole comments to you). Why don't you try and make one change a day? Baby steps.

It is, Vlad, I’m afraid!

How was work today?

Ok

What do you do? Is it fun? I'm in a bit of a perilous situation atm because I'm freelancing but I want to find a permanent position with all the good perks like holidays and sick pay. I panic about losing or finding clients. I don't want that kind of life anymore. Yes it brings freedom but it also brings a great deal of stress that I'd just much rather do without! Fucking hell!

I’m lucky to have it as it is a secure permanent position, but I do find it doesn’t leave much room for anything else if that makes sense.

Was there a good bit about today? Something that made you think ‘ah, that’s good’. Sometimes when I’m feeling as low as you sound I try really hard to appreciate the tiniest things - a good cup of tea, a bit of sunshine, being able to finish work on time.

What are you going to do this evening?

Hi OP, I think you should see a GP and try new anti depressants- you would need to give them a few weeks to really kick in & for the side effects to wear off... seriously the right ADs really helped me.

I don't know if you have a pet but having the challenge of a rescue cat has really helped give me something to get up for too.

Good to hear that work was OK.

Do you have a good work life balance? Presumably you're not posting from the office? Gah! I certainly don't miss the days when I'd still be in the office at 8/9pm.

Hey Isthisit, glad to see you are back. How are you doing today? Am glad this thread has taken a more positive turn. We're here to chat if you want.

People who come onto these kind of threads to give someone a kicking are cheap, nasty people with very sorry souls, their posts speak volumes about their ugliness

OP I hope today has been a degree brighter

Hope tomorrow is a good day!

Have you got any ideas of what you are going to do at the weekend?

Don't want to hijack thread so will just say hi to Vladimir ..am there too after ten years of freelancing all getting v stressful and scraping the barrel ...as for OP I get where you are too ...have become quite isolated and pretty broke , and man do i hate Sundays .
Hope you can find another way of life that raises your mood ...one of the reasons i found work years ago in a hospital was for the social aspect of it..maybe look for a career change? Best wishes 👍

@ginandbearit, when I was single (and when married come to think of it) I never minded working shifts/weekends/nights. It was a nice way of being around people when I’d otherwise have been on my own (at 38 my friends were either married or in relationships/with children).

Hope you’ve had an OK day, @isthisit 😊

How's things going today @Isthisit33?

Thinking of you
It’s horrific to be in a dark place and feel no reason to exist. I know it well.
Sometimes life tests us to our limits

Just popped by to say hello Isit

glad work was ok op.

i asked where you are - you dont have to answer but if you want to pm me.
hope youre in a bit better place today