Suicidal after abortion

[Topaz89]

I had an abortion last week that I now deeply regret and I am deeply ashamed about it. I am changed forever and I can't see a way forward apart from ending it all.

Am I ever going to live a normal life again? If not then there is no point being here.

Well I've had an ok few days where my feelings have settled down a bit. Been feeling more rational and calm. I think it's because of the Christmas holidays and the kids/my partner have been off. There have been no school runs and no pregnant friends to bump in to.
But all night tonight I've been on a downer again It's all come flooding back and I'm feeling so sad about what has happened.
I wish so much that I had carried on with the pregnancy.

Did you decide to start trying for another baby, or have I mistaken you for the Op of a different thread?

When does your counselling start, and have you restarted the sertraline yet?

Hope you have a good day.

Bartlet It is something I want to do soon yes.
I'm having more counselling next week as had a break over Christmas.
I haven't restarted the Sertraline just in case it affects my fertility.

Please don't take this the wrong way, but have your reasons for wanting to not have a pregnancy at this time actually changed?

The affect on your existing children?
On your ability to cope?
On your already unstable relationship?

I appreciate that you are having a really hard time at the moment, and my heart breaks for you.

But, planning to have another child is a big commitment that really requires rational thinking. It shouldn't be an emotional reaction. Please please talk this through with your counsellor.

I'm sorry if you take any offence to the above. It's meant with the best of intentions.

Feeling suicidal and don’t know what to do. I have got myself into a terrible mess (I only realised after it was pointed out to me) and I just can’t see any other way out. I have three wonderful young children and an amazing husband who I absolutely adore, supportive family and friends but I have let them all down. I don’t want to leave them but I also can’t live with this pain and guilt. I am on medication and am involved with mental health services but I just feel like they don’t understand when I talk to them. Please could someone tell me what is worse for my family - me being here but being a shadow of my former self (paranoid, full of guilt, fear and preoccupied) or is it better for them to be free of me? My husband could then find someone else who is happy and normal to help him bring up my children.

Hi anyone there? I’m going through the exact same situation at topaz and I need to talk to her

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