New Years eve downer - 2015 can't be anything but worse than 2014...

[Theas18]

Had to shut Facebook - I know good move anyway!

All the " what wonderful things happened in 2014 and how wonderful we are all going to find 2015" just makes me want to shout ITS ONLY GOING TO GET WORSE THIS IS A DEPRESSING ONE WAY JOURNEY ....

And I realise how my parents being old and I'll has completely overshadowed the good stuff this year.

I know the theory - one day at a time and all that but it's more difficult isn't it, and my supporter at work has just been hit with the news that her dad has metastatic malignancy too. ??

I know exactly what you mean. And fb is also full of other peoples parents and even grandparents taking part in their celebrations, and mine are totally checked out of it all.

And what will 2015 bring - well, I know that as far as my parents are concerned, there will be nothing good

Sadly I have similar feelings, Theas. I've been feeling pretty gloomy today, rather than having my old new year optimism that I had for 2014. Mum's diagnosis in the summer, and all the challenges and problems it's brought with it, are dragging me down. Can't help thinking about the fact that this is likely to be her last year

Just happened to stumble across this thread...
I've had a roller coaster of a year!
March-surprise pregnancy(3rd kid!)
April-dad diagnosed with kidney cancer!!
June-dad has kidney and tumour removed but cancer has spread to lungs! He continues to smoke like a chimney
March to October-worst pregnancy then baby arrives 10 weeks early
October-baby spends 5 weeks in Scbu, no health concerns whatsoever
Home for 6 days then ends up in intensive care for a fortnight with bronchiolitis! Most worrying time of my life
All the while my poor dad is suffering terribly with side effects of the cancer treatment which isn't going to cure it but slow it down/shrink it(which it has)
2014 was a good year in that we were blessed with a beautiful little boy. I honestly don't know what the hell 2015 will bring?! Will dad deteriorate? Will he just continue to feel awful, depressed and unhappy? I am an only child with 3 kids of my own! There's only do much I can do for him and I hate myself for not being there more for him. He literally only has me.
No idea if this was even relevant to this thread but I feel better for getting all that off my chest. Thank you
Good luck to you for 2015

loveallmyboys
Your comments are absolutely relevant to the thread. That's a total rollercoaster and I can so identify with the guilt you feel being pulled in all directions. I'm not an only child but as my sister has removed herself to live a very comfortable SAHM expat life in Spain im here to deal with all the crap - yes I resent her deeply for it at the moment. I didn't even get a decent holiday this year.

Pingpong and CMOT sorry you are in similar gloomy territory.

Now feeling guilty that it's taken a " tell me the good things about your teens" thread to make a little " Pollyanna " blessings counting list - and the kids are amazing really, I just haven't been able to see it so well in 2014.

Oh Theas I'm sorry it's such a difficult time for you. There really isn't much hope of things getting better when our parents reach this stage in their lives.
It's just depressing.
Old age.
Pah.

Glad to hear the DC are okay though, they may be teens but you still want to spend time with them, in fact it's more precious when they are just home from uni for a short time.