Hate feeling this way but..

[RedSpottyDog]

How are we all doing this every single day?
I actually hate being a mum. I can’t be the only one? I do everything for everyone and if im honest ive completely lost who I am, sometimes I dream of just not picking them up from school, however awful that sounds, they aren’t even bad kids so it’s me not them. Im not cut out for being a single mum. Im always amazed how many women claim to love it and I am genuinely happy for them and happy we live in a time where people feel this way but honestly I can’t relate one bit. It’s hard work, exhausting and frankly miserable. It does not get easier as they get older and quite frankly im sick of hear that unless people mean adults, I can see it being some what enjoyable if you share parenting and get regular breaks to yourself, otherwise no. I feel miserable most days and cant remember the last time I felt happy, sometimes I think of meeting a partner so I can at least have something or someone out there that supports me but then I realise that would be for the wrong reasons. Can anyone actually relate? I obviously wouldnt not pick them up but I have to admit I contemplate it a lot, the house is a mess because I never have any energy to actually clean it it’s just one thing after another and im sick of it.

Thank you for the nice comments, honestly that horrible poster really no need for it, I clean up but the house looks a tip half an hour later so you know what no I don’t have the energy to keep doing it, I’ve been busy parenting solo all day long and by the time they are asleep im crawling into bed exhausted. Really don’t understand why they came on my post and decided to be a nasty judgemental B. Im fed up of pretending being a single parent is amazing and fantastic, it isnt, it’s awful, and it wasn’t my choice if I had my time again and knew I would be a lone parent i wouldnt have had children (yes I love them and take care of them but this isn’t a life I would have chosen ever)

OP, please go and talk to your GP. You sound depressed which isn't surprising under the circumstances.

very helpful to someone who’s struggling.

@RedSpottyDogyou have my sympathy. I hated the young child years (also a single parent). It’s grim. Do you get any time to yourself?
The only thing I can say and it’s probably not hernia is that it will pass.
Do you work? I had a job that I loved where I made some good friends which helped a bit.
Did you mention how old they are ? Small kids are particularly gruelling.

You hardly sound like a perfect parent yourself. If this is how you act in real life you need to worry about your own children and not judge anyone else’s parenting.

You should do something empowering for yourself. Something that makes you happy. I went back to uni. Is there anything that appeals? A hobby, a sport?

I work, and I have a few hours “to myself” while the children are at school one day a week, but honestly, that doesn’t feel like a break. I spend that time cleaning, catching up on housework and running errands. The other day I spent three hours cleaning and just thought, how is this supposed to be a break from parenting when I’m essentially spending it cleaning up the mess everyone else has made?
I don’t have any hobbies or regular time for myself because I don’t have the childcare to make that possible. I’m genuinely not trying to be difficult or dismissive of anyone else’s experience, but I do think there’s a big difference depending on your circumstances.
I can absolutely see how having time to yourself can be enjoyable if your children spend weekends with their dad or split their time between two households. You get proper stretches of time where you’re not actively parenting and can actually have a life outside of being a mum. For those of us who don’t have that arrangement, a day while the children are at school doesn’t necessarily feel like a break. It’s just time to catch up on all the things that need doing that’s got on top of you.