I dont expect any one to answer this because frankly - its not really a queation
Just wanted to put this down somewhere...
PLease please please can I please get pregnant soon? I have been very good all year and not let on how heartbroken I have been every time someone else got their BFP. I have bought presents for and visited all the little new borns of my friends and colleagues and felt the physical pain of holding them in my arms and wishing so hard it was me.
I have been mega healthy in my diet and not touched any alcohol and took countless vitamins, and prepared meals every day for DH that followed all the rules of fertility nutrition, and made sure DH had all his vitamins too, and charted and temped and used OPK's religiously and demanded an appointment with the fertility consultant and done all the tests me and DH can do.
I have saved every penny I can, despite DH getting made redunudant in Novmeber in order to pay for one go at IVF
I have had sex til I'm sick of it and encouraged and seduced DH through illness, redundancy and masculinity wobbles (cause the infertility is due to his sperm)I have tried preseed and proxeed and grapefruit juice and B6 and hypnoconception cd's, and reiki and even going on holiday.
I have been so, so good and dedicated for nearly a year and a half and I want it so, so much. So please, God, Santa, The UNiverse, PLease please let me have my BFP