Terrified of another chemical!

[firsttimemxm]

Just looking for some reassurance/vent to anyone in similar positions!! Had a few chemicals previously, still ttc and tested positive with a faint line 8 dpo morning and night, again at 9 dpo in morning but negative 10dpo all day but got a positive 11dpo, now 12dpo and negative again! This whole process is so mentally exhausting.. after years of ttc i thought i’d know better not to test so much, get my hopes up. Can’t shake the feeling something bads about to happen after I let myself feel slightly like this could be the cycle!

Sorry to hear you're going through this.
After my chemical I forbade myself from testing before 14dpo. It was such an emotional rollercoaster. That faint barely there line never got darker and eventually just stopped showing up....
So easy to give in and test early.
I read that its so common that most just don't know it happens cause it happens so early on. And I truly rather not know.
Maybe don't test for a couple days...
Have you consulted a clinic since you had several chemicals? Might be helpful to run some tests to make sure all is good.

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment, it’s definitely too easy to give in sometimes but you have the right idea i’ll take this on board. I was referred by my GP to EPAS but was told there’s nothing they can do as chemicals aren’t counted as a miscarriage as theres ‘nothing’ there.. horrible experience whilst grieving so i dread having to phone again if this keeps happening.

@firsttimemxm that's a crappy response by the medic, sorry to hear. I had two MCs and was over 35 so I qualified for fertility clinic consultation, ran all the tests and even got on the list for IVF. We conceived naturally but those tests helped so much. I was low on progesterone and once I started taking it, baby stayed.
I wish when you're ready to try for a baby the tests they gave me were available upon request without having to experience two MCs and one chemical.
I would ask again.... Especially if you've been trying for a while and nothing.

I had a chemical in october & i have had positive tests (faint) but deffo positive and honestly ive been testing obbsesively its so unhealthy im trying to see if the line gets darker torturing myself its a complete theif of joy 😩 its so hard not to test i keep telling myself not too then i do it again & im so scared of whats to come cant even feel slightly excited im refusing to believe its really happening so i try not to be so dissapointed like last time its so hard xx

Thanks so much for all taking the time to reply, i’ve had another neg today at 13dpo. Really lost all hope now and the heartache creeps in, cannot believe this could be happening again. x