Driving myself mad! Implantation bleed or my imagination?

[PleaseTTC]

I am on cycle 6 of TTC after a TFMR at 26 weeks in October last year.

My cycles since then have been fairly short - 22, 25, 23, 26 (really thought I was pregnant that time then BAM hello AF on day 26), 22 and then this time I am on day 26 and no sign.

I did Sainsbury's own brand pregnancy tests yesterday and this morning, both negative (I thought I could see a v faint line yesterday, but almost definitely not this morning, although even the control line was light.... but I'm likely kidding myself).

We have DTD every other day alllll this cycle, generally at 36 hours ish intervals (crikey, when did I become this person?!).

Anyway... DTD this morning, and when I went to the loo to clean up I noticed a kind of pinkish hue when I wiped. But since then... nothing. No pinkish hue, no spotting, nothing. Just normal discharge.

So.. ugh I know this is silly question but please just humour me... when should I test again? Could the slight pink have been implantation? Would it have shown up already on the pregnancy test if I was pregnant, seeing as I've tested at 25/26 days and my cycles are usually shorter than that?

You might be able to tell I'm quite desperate to get pregnant.... trying not to be. But I am.

Any wise words welcome, or just advice on how to chill the hell out.

@PleaseTTC okay. In the chillest way, you'll either be pregnant or you won't be. Your cycles are getting marginally longer at times, but as essentially you are due AF now, you'd expect a line of you were going to get one. A small pink tinge could be anything... it could even be from sex. Do you know when you ovulated and how many DPO you are? X

@FlyOnTheWall89 Ah I know, and I appreciate you laying it out for me. I was thinking that yesterday when I went to buy the tests, 'oh I bet now I've bought them I'll come on my period' and then had to shake myself as my uterus doesn't know that I've just bought pregnancy tests! And I'll either come on my period or I won't, or I'm pregnant or I'm not. There's no grey area, is there! That's what I mean, I'm driving myself mad, going to the toilet three times as much as usual to check. Gah.

Anyway! I actually don't know when I ovulated this month - I was using OPKs in previous cycles but then I felt that I was getting obsessive about only having sex when it gave me a flashy face, or if we missed a day I'd be grumpy that we'd missed the chance. And that's not fair on DP. Soooo, no. No idea about when I ovulated. But I assume later than usual, if AF hasn't arrived yet.

Ok, I need to chill. I'll either come on my period in the next few days, or I won't, and there's not much I or anyone else can do about it...!!

Thank you

Ye tricky to know if you don't know when you O. Hopefully you don't get AF, but I think always keep expectation low and you could get a perfect Easter surprise! X