Thoughts please? 😣

[Stabal]

MMC in May after TTC for 2 years and no luck since. Decided to give up tracking this month and didn't even reorder supplements because I've been extremely down about it all and every month is devastating. Last month I had a short luteal phase of 8 days when I'm normally around 15 and my whole cycle is usually between 32-35, ovulating around CD19-22. So I've not been tracking but still doing my temps every morning. FF is saying I've ovulated already (BBT attached) which is early for me. Yesterday temp dipped, I had a few cramps in the afternoon and some spotting by last night. Today I've had more spotting this evening. Yesterday was tiny red tinges when I wiped, today is more brownish and more on the tissue when I wipe than yesterday but not enough to need a pad. So I decided to take an OPK and it was positive.. What do we think? AF arriving meaning a really short luteal phase again or FF is wrong and this is ovulation bleeding? I don't normally spot before AF or with ovulation and it seems odd to be having ovulation bleeding days before ovulation would actually be happening? Ready to just rip out my ovaries at this point as it becomes increasingly closer to my due date 😔

@galatea098 between 30 and 35 they recommend you contact your GP after a year of trying but it can also take the average person up to 2 years to fall pregnant, so even for a 'normal' reproductive system it all comes down to luck in the end! Just keep going with what you're doing and know there's the option of investigating in a few months if needs be but fingers crossed you won't need it 💕

@Overlyanxious I definitely think I'm just stressing myself out. My due date would have been the start of December and I had visions of being pregnant again by then. I have EWCM again yesterday and today and low back pain and my temp dipped to 35.96 so maybe today is finally the day 🙄

@stabal that makes sense and I’m so sorry it’s coming up to that time. 2021 surely has to be better. I feel like all of us with get there eventually. I just wish it would hurry up.

@galatea098 we focused our energy on home decorating last lockdown too! So glad we did because we'd be putting it off for about a year haha. Yeah, I'm still in complete limbo. Was certain I'd see a big rise this morning because I feel dreadful, lower back ache and a pain low in my tummy to the right especially when I bend and lots of ewcm. But alas, still nothing!

If my temps weren't so low I'd actually take a pregnancy test especially since my last period came at 8DPO which is early for me, usually my LP is 15/16. Absolutely hate all this. I'm in work feeling so emotional and exhausted.

@galatea098 I finally ovulated last Thursday so 6DPO now. I guess my little breakdown was heavy induced PMS 😂 I've calmed down now. Will ring and book my test when AF shows. Glad to be moving forward! Best of luck with your new cycle! It always seems like a chore to get started and then we become utterly drawn in and obsessed lol