Its all fecking over. And i am truly gutted

[Softscoop35]

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I think im 13dp5dt after IVF treatment. Had a top quality hatching 5AA blastocyst transferred.
Got a faint BFP at 6dp5dt. The a BFN at 7dp5dt.
Hope you can keep up but i then got a BFP at 10dp5dt on both FRER and CB Digi.
I started getting symptoms, sore boobs, tiredness and bloating but in my head i knew something wasnt right.
I tested tonight on a CB Digi and got NOT PREGNANT (twice) i then did a FRER and got a positive. It was slightly fainter that what i got previously.
I am gutted. I know this is a chemical. My worst fear come true.... again! (I have one in 2012 and i didnt know until 6.5wks)
Im going to the EPU tomorrow to have bloods to draw a line.
I dont know what im looking for... but im utterly gutted.
This isnt gonna happen is it....

Sending you massive hugs.
I'm so sorry that you're going through this.

I'll keep everything crossed for you for tomorrow xx

Uugh. The IVF rollercoaster that nobody wants to be on. Am really sorry, it’s just the pits.

I'm sorry, I've not had ivf but had a loss and know how awful it can be when you suddenly realise. Look after yourself and yes go get some bloods done so then you'll know what is going on

Hist had my blood results... HCG is just 28.

My heart hurts 😢

Hey @Softscoop35 what should your hcg be? Stay neutral don't be too negative - the digital tests need loads of HCG so they're no good for early testing. Sending love, just try and take your mind of it xxxxxx

anything over 25 is considered Positive, right?

Yes but she initially had a positive on a cb digital but it has now turned negative.
Do you have to return for bloods in 2 days tine to see if your levels have increased or dropped? Xx

Im about 20PO (14dp5dt)
28HCG is way too low for a viable pregnancy 😪
Yeah, im supposed to go back on friday but i dont think i will bother.

I feel so upset, dont want to eat, dont want to talk to anyone but i feel a complete fraud feeling like this.... its like a chemical isnt a 'proper' pregnancy or miscarriage.

I had a very prolonged CP in 2012 and didnt find out until i was 6 weeks gone. And i remember feeling the same. Its so confusing.

Im angry too, im angry with all the people that didnt believe me a week ago when i said it was a chemical, im angry that they all persisted and allowed me to believe this could happen. I know its not their fault, their intentions were good. But none of them believed me

It is a proper pregnancy, don't feel like that hun, it's awful going through a loss at any stage and if you've waited so long for it I think it can hit you harder. Take your time to grieve and don't feel silly for doing so, you've been through a tough time

I'm so sorry.
Take some time to grieve and take care of yourself xx

Huge hugs for you. I've had 3 CP so far this year, potentially 4 but I refused to test last month despite AF being late. It truly sucks. I get the feeling like a fraud, you don't feel like you have the right to grieve. The only way I got over it was to talk about it

I'm so sorry. I don't know what it's like to go through IVF, but I have had at least three mc's included one missed and at least one chemical. It must be heartbreaking x

Thank you everyone.

I went to see the doctor today who gave me a sicknote and has referred me to the recurrent miscarriage clinic.

Every pregnancy ive had, ive lost. Despite having my son on pregnancy number 3, i lost his twin so i think it warrants an investigation.

Thanks for the support x

So sorry @Softscoop35

I couldn't read and run though about your bloods. Please do go back for your next blood test. I had a miscarriage in the summer and had to have various bloods done and they ended up showing that although I had miscarried, there was still tissue there and I needed treatment to sort that. I'd have been at risk of infection and possible complications for future pregnancies if I hadn't have known. Xx

Hi Wannabe

Thanks for showing concern but my HCG level was on 28 on Wednesday and i know it had previously dropped as i had a positive digi, then a negative.

I will ensure i will so a test in the next week to make sure its negative