Why is my body being so cruel?

[Goingabitcrazy]

Hi sorry for the negative title.
I am 10dpo and have 2dc. New partner and trying for his 1st my 3rd. My eldest is 10 and have always just followed my app which has worked previously.
Got pregnant last February but wasn't to be. No symptoms apart from a cold sore at 7dpo and some cramps. Also a bleed. I literally poa cb digital in the evening wiped and there was bright red blood. Thought sod it and used the second one in the pack the following morning and got my bfp.
Fast forward to now. Cold sore again at 7dpo (not common for me) bad cramps and really strong nausea. Bfn at 12dpo have previously had strong bfps at 10dpo with previous 2dc. I'm out aren't I? Why does my body play these tricks. It's just not fair. Sorry just needed to rant x

Big hugs... your not out until AF arrives, wishing you luck for the next few days. I wouldnt say the cold sore is a sign but the others are possibly. Be kind to yourself tonight and allow yourself to feel crap, then get some sleep and see what tomorrow brings. You never know! xx

Thank you @sammyclaire22. This waiting game is not easy is it

Nope! But on rubbish days i try to tell myself nothing worth anything comes easily.
For me all the heartache i went through first time round ttc helped me later- in the middle of the night when they have been screaming for hours and it feels relentless you can think back to how long the bloody tww felt and it isn't quite so bad! X