I just came out of a fresh cycle of IVF and looks like I'm pregnant (5w2d). The journey was so draining though that I'm struggling to enjoy the pregnancy and I'm so scared it will end up in miscarriage that i have done over 50 tests of different brands and still test 2/3 times a day. I have done 2 blood tests and I have another on friday. If a test comes slightly lighter then the previous one, I freak out and cry and yell at everybody.
I have an incredibly demanding job and need to keep all inside there, hence I will take it out on my OH and my mum, who came here to stay during this difficult time.
I know that there are many worrying steps ahead (6 weeks scan, 12 and 20 week scan, etc..) and a lot of time in between during which I might easily go nuts.
Do you have any advice and have you experienced something similar? If so, how did you manage to keep sane? I feel I'm losing it and being drained from ivf surely does not help.