Please be my Rainbow!

[Rosasaurus]

AF is not due until Friday. I'm trying to convince myself I see something......

@Wigglywigglywooo sending you big hugs! I think this week has been the hardest since losing my angel but I do feel like I have come to the realisation that getting pregnant quickly isn't going to make me feel better. I need to find myself again and allow myself to heal in order to be ready for my rainbow. My AF hasn't arrived today so I don't know if I'm destined to punish myself if I re-test tomorrow!

@Rosasaurus how are you getting on? AF hasn’t showed up for me yet! I did a test tonight but went for a wee two hours before. I’m sure I can see something faint but it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve falsely convinced myself! Xx

Hey @Wigglywigglywooo AF turned up Friday night, been super heavy :( I think my body needs more time to recover after what it's been through. When's your AF due? Xx

Oh sorry to hear that @Rosasaurus it’s so hard isn’t it.

I always used to be 28/29 days before the MMC. Now It has been 34 days, 34 days, 30 days and now I’m on CD 31. So not really sure to be honest! I used to run like clockwork so I’m a bit thrown. I got a peak day on CD 17/18 so surely if I were to get a BFP it would have happened by now?! Got my BFP really early last time x

@Wigglywigglywooo I'm sorry to hear your cycles haven't returned to what they were! It does seem like you would have a BFP by now but who's to know!! It's the not knowing and hoping that's the worst, I ended up wanting my AF to turn up so I could move onto the next cycle! I had a surgical termination in Jan due to my baby being diagnosed with Acrania. Then another procedure due to retained products in March. I've now had 2 x AF - both arrive on time and for the same duration as before being pregnant but both EXTREMELY heavy. No pain but I think that's due to getting my butt back in the gym. My angel was my first pregnancy and I conceived on my second cycle so I'm hoping it won't take long this time but also am recognising that my AF isn't what it was before so maybe my body isn't ready??