PMA Express to BFP Thread #5

[Hippychic79]

So we are rolling on to thread #five –
We are not giving up, our PMA is still alive.

Put pure and simply,
We want to have babies,
God, please help everyone of these lovely ladies.

We support each other,
We are funny and kind,
And we will not be giving up,
Until we see that thick BFP line.

sarahb you're an inspiration to us all you really are .... having Pma all the way is tough but fair play to you I know you've been on this journey a long time and from the hippy that set up the thread in the first place I would like to crown you the Pma queen ... xxx

Now where's that fecking wand !!! Xxx

Oh yeah - bfn on ic from me this morning in case you hadn't noticed from my attitude !!!
#nowcomeonafgetroundhere
Xxx

Oh I'm sorry Hippy. I've had a huge temperature dip in my BBT this morning so I'm definitely out too. Just awaiting her arrival now, hoping she doesn't make me wait too long!

In keeping with Sarah's PMA, here's my 3 positives:

1: it's my moms hen do in 2 weeks, at least I can get drunk on it now!
2: this cycle was much shorter than usual, and I OV a week earlier (thanks to acupuncture I think) so fingers crossed that carries on so I don't have to wait too long to next OV
3: if I'd have conceived this cycle my due date would have been early Jan, and just after DS's birthday. So my next baba's birthday will now be at least a month after DS's instead #keepingthePMAsoidontcry
#comeonAFhurrythefuckupnow

archies fair play to you for keeping up the Pma ... I'm trying but failing dismally !!!
Dp and I had our monthly fight last night but made up before he left for work.
I'm a January baby and although I'd love to be upduffed I didn't really want my child to have a January birthday as I've not been a fan of it myself .... that said I'm freaking gutted as I was feeling more hopeful this month and the thought of riding another month on this ttc train is enough to drive you crazy.
I'm sorry for being a negative nancy but the witch isn't even here yet and like you Archie's I'm willing her on to get here as I'm keen to keep ovulation timings at the wk end as dtd is easier on Saturdays and Sundays .... ok so enough of my moaning ...
My 3 things ....
1/ I have two amazingly supportive cycle buddies and some amazingly supportive mumsnet friends who are the only ones that I understand how shitty I feel right now
2/ I am in love with my dp and I am lucky to have found him a bit later in life after a disastrous marriage and he actually wants kids (albeit it not yet)
3/ I have more time to clear my stupid credit card and save up to buy my baby the very best of everything

And that is all I can muster apart from echoing Archie's hashtag ....
Come on af ... get your arse here NOW

Hippy vent as much as you want to, we're all here for you. I will admit that I'm feeling super emotional already, but after 10 long months ttc now, trying to see the positives is my coping mechanism. I promise that we will get there Hun 😘 xx

For you Hippy and anyone else who needs a little reminder xx

@Hippy @Archies ladies I am gutted for you both. I really believed it was your month. Wine and chocolate (and vodka hippy!) and be kind to yourselves and back on it. I am so sorry. Really was hoping to read entirely different posts this morning :(
#trustthetimingsofyourlife

Xoxo

Oh Archie it's just crap isn't it!

I'm really annoyed about this nurse & hat she wouldn't give me a scan because I can't stop worrying. My period has been even shorter this month. It's nothing like it was before an I'm worried this is the reason I'm not falling. The nurse said 1-2 day period can be fine. But I feel like she was fobbing me off tbh. 😫😫

Moo thank you so much, I really thought we both had it this month too. Never mind, back on it this cycle xx

Oh Anna, I'm afraid that I don't know much about short periods and if it affects your fertility. But I know there's nothing worse than worrying and not knowing if there's something wrong. Have you tried googling it? I think sometimes that if these GP's and nurses don't specialise in fertility then they don't really know a lot about it.

Thanks ladies xxx

Oh poo, I'm so sorry guys. Definitely thought we'd be due some bfps this weekend. Love the 3 things and the PMA push. It'll see you through. Lots of love ladies xx

Yeh I've tried googling an most things say 3-7 days for period. 2 can be normal. But that wasn't ever what I had before. Like there a lot shorter than pre miscarriage. I don't know what to think. But now it's in my head I can't get it out!

Anna this ttc is a real mind fuck isn't it!! I swear everybody around me seems to be pregnant at the mo and we're rolling into month 11 and some days I can't fathom how it hasn't worked yet 😩

And AF is finally here, so I'm going to treat her well and then tell her to do one for the next 9 months

The witch is here yaaaaaaay xxxxx

Yay Hippy we're cycle buddies again for this month

Ladies I need some serious PMA. Got result of my AMH yesterday - bad news at only 1. Apparently too low for clomid to work and potentially too low for ivf to produce a good amount of eggs (apparently nhs refuse funding if you have a low AMH as little chance of success). I am absolutely devastated and finding it hard to remain positive- help!

Oh hippy I'm so sorry. At least AF is now here and you can focus on the next cycle.

Blondienut I'm so sorry to you too. Have they discussed next steps at all? You must be devastated.

What your AMH was 1 blonde? What does that mean? I don't know enough about it I don't think. What should it be?

I'm 38 and from what I can gather the range should be 5.5 - 37 . 5.5 being the low end of normal. I think even if it was 2 or 3 there would still be problems. I only had the results over the phone so need to arrange an appointment to discuss but from my research ivf only option unless I get a miracle in the meantime. Unfortunately as my egg reserve is low I don't think I would respond well to drugs so chances of ivf working aren't great.

I haven't stopped crying for 24hrs.... devastated is the only way I can describe. Trying to read positive stories to give me hope but I don't want false hope iykwim

Oh Blondie, I am so, so sorry. I feel awful or for moaning about AF showing again. I've just had a quick Google and it looks like there are private treatments available to try and raise your AMH level (don't quote me on that, I'm out at the mo so couldn't really check). But even if it means paying to go private, there might be some options you could to better your chances of IVF?

Oh Blondie 😔 It's gutting news. Understand how upset you must be. Yes same as Archie I have heard people do thing to improve their egg equality etc. I know AMH determines how good the eggs are and how long you have left. So maybe there are things that could be tried?

I know IVF your ovaries need to respond to the drugs and make lots of eggs to collect as so many get lost in the process in hope that there is one to put in at the end. But I'm sure there is someone who can help you! It just might take several IVF attempts! Wait for you appointment and see what they say.

😤😤😤😤 this is not a good weekend!!

blondie I'm soooooo sorry to read this .... I guess nothing any of us can say will help you feel better but I will try .....
The doctors are not always right .... a friend of mine got diagnosed with a terminal illness 10 years ago and given 6-12 months to live ... she is still alive and doing well.

This may seem like a big bump in the road but please be assured that miracles happen every day and where there's a will there is a way .... a good book to prove this point is you are the placebo by dr joe dizpenza it's not about ttc but it does highlight the power of the mind body connection.

I am sending you lots of virtual hugs right now xxx