Don't know what I expect anyone to say or do but just need to put this in words for my own sanity!

[MillyM]

Please forgive me if this is a ramble but I've got so much stuff going round my head at the moment I just needed to spill it out somewhere.
DH and I have been ttc no.2 since January and to be honest I wasn't expecting it to happen soon, was expecting it to take a few cycles. Long story short, did a pregnancy test yesterday and got a faint positive line, but been having cramps for some time and spots of blood. AF is around 4 days late. I've had flu for a week and have taken all manner of cold medications that say you shouldn't take them if pregnant, plus Dd has chicken pox (isn't this harmful in early pregnancy?). Now I'm quite resigned to the fact that, if I was pregnant, then I'm probably likely to miscarry but what's bugging me is the fact my body won't make up it's mind! If AF is going to start I just wish it would I feel like I'm hanging in the balance. Don't want to do another test incase it confirms and says not preganant, even though I'd be surprised if I still was, does that make any sense?! Sorry - end of spouting

Ok, that appears to have been a case of 'famous last words' Just had some light pink bleeding and I have period style cramps. I'm back to just wishing my body would make its mind up.

Oh no, Milly - sorry to hear that - it's so frustrating isn't it, you just can NOT relax into the pg. I didn't realise how hard I found ds's pg until I had a (relatively) bleed-free one with dd... I basically spent 9 mths not wanting to go to the loo...
Light pink's not as bad as red, remember.
What did they tell you to do if you bled again? Do you have to go back to epu or to the docs? (epu got to the stage where they told me not to come back again unless I lost lots of red blood - think they'd had enough of me )
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He didn't tell me to do anyhthing in particular fp, just asks each time I visit if I've had more bleeding and up to tonight, the answer has been no. Just been to the loo again and no ore blood but these horrible cramps are just so depressing. I want to cry.

btw - thank you for being there again,you're a star. x

Not a problem - it's horrid - esp becuase it so often happens when you're too early to really want to tell many people in rl
Btw, have you seen this thread which might be a nice place for you to hang out
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fp, thank you for that link, I've posted on the thread. Poor Mrsmc sounds like she's having a horrible time. Hopefully we can support each other a little bit. Having to take tomorrow off for the scan as no one at work knows, based on any results or whatever they can tell me from the scan depends on if I tell work or not - feel a fraud just sat here having told them I've got a vile bug.