I don't really know what I am posting for but I am just so upset about it. For the first time ever I dont know how we are going to pull off Christmas. For background, we have 6 children. Youngest 2, eldest 14. I am a stay at home mum as eldest has needs and well it is cheaper then childcare. Hubby works, bloody hard might I add,hes well paid and other then child benefit that everyone gets and dla for the eldest, we dont get benefits like UC etc, we arnt entitled and dont want to anyway. Anyway everything has just come at once, my mental health has been really rubbish recently and I havnt done my usual buying early and stashing pressies away so I have maybe 1 thing per child and honestly no idea how we are going to do it. 1 pay day left, like I say lots of things have just all come at once that need paying too. Luckily the kids are angels and there isnt anything overly expensive on their lists, mostly diamond art/ drawing pads etc but one has put a proper camera and ones asked for a yoto. Im heartbroken and Christmas is so special to me, I love it. I know that it will still be Christmas and we will still have time together but kids deserve pressies and I dont have a money tree 😭😭😭 Anyone else?