i've just found out i cant get to see the doctor thats doing me assessment for at least 3/4weeks which means my cm registration is going to have to be put on hold - this is very bad as my mat pay runs out on 6th march so i probably wont get any mindees until may by the time im registered and i've advertised and had meetings with parents etc. Dp is going on at me to find some evening work as we cant afford to pay the bills if im not bringing anything at all in.
so i mentioned setting up as a babysitter until im registered as i know i wouldnt leave my baby/ children with a strange teenager id feel a bit more confident leaving them with another mother that is doing it to get some money until shes a registered childminder (also might bring in future business) but dp says no way because it wont be as much as we need and it might not take off at all and id only get pittance for the hours id put in so he wants me to get a bar job and im just wondering if i was just fooling myself into believing i could actually do this. im feeling like a complete failure, please can someone give me some words of encouragement or tell me to get a reality check!