I had my dd 1 year ago by ecs and 15 days after her 1st burthday I had to go into hospital to have a discectomy (I have had ongoing problems with my back since the birth probably due to a difficult labour) we are currently staying with my parents who are being amazing, looking after her and me but I am starting to feel increasingly diassociated from my dd and very tearful and depressed. It is two weeks after the surgery, pleasde tell me I am normal and its going to get better!