I’ve NC for this. I just want a handhold and to hear positive elective c section experiences.
I’m due to have a c section tomorrow, this is my second baby. My first was a traumatic vaginal birth (I was induced) which included a PPH, pre eclampsia, sepsis, 2nd degree tear, episiotomy, retained placenta, blood transfusion and my kidneys were failing. She was born with forceps, I don’t remember a lot of the birth, just certain parts but I did have private counselling which massively helped. This was almost 2 years ago now.
It took a while for me to fall pregnant the first time, so although we did agree to try again - I was shocked how quickly I fell pregnant this time considering it took nearly a year with DD. I told DP I’d like to have elective section this time, my consultant was also in agreement with me. I don’t want anymore children after this as I’ve suffered with HG throughout both pregnancies.
Anyway, I had my pre op assessment recently and it was mentioned about my cervix being checked following delivery of baby. She also mentioned the number of the people in the room which has now made me really anxious. I struggled getting a smear test last year as I was so tense down there the nurse couldn’t insert the clamp, so I never even managed to get tested. My legs were shaking and ultimately that’s what made me realise I needed counselling. I’m terrified of them checking down there, my legs being in stirrups again and all the people in the room. I feel stupid for not thinking of this beforehand but I naively thought as I’m having a c section, they wouldn’t need to look down there. It makes total sense but it just didn’t cross my mind.
What was your experience like? I appreciate it’s going to be a much calmer environment than what I had first time but I just can’t shake these feelings off. I just keep crying and I know I’m going to be a nervous wreck tomorrow.