So I suffered a 3rd degree tear graded a C 9 weeks ago.. stitches seem to have healed well I have an idea where they are but it’s hard to tell how far they go internally. (Makes me shudder at the thought of exploring to find out) The midwife said it would be a good idea to have a look which I have done, everything looks and feels okay but I’m just comcerned about my perineum, it probably sounds silly but it seems so short (maybe 1cm) and it’s more towards my back passage rather than front or central ?...I do have a follow up with a gynaecologist in about 3 weeks but I’m anxious about what it should be, if this is normal, and what they’ll do if it’s not... Looking at it makes me worry about having intercourse again it just looks too small like it might split 😳 has anyone else experienced this and recovered well and managed to live a normal sex life later on? Maybe it feels more fragile than it really is because I know what’s happened down there. I know any future babies will need to be ELCS as I was told by the surgeon.