I'm only 30 weeks atm but in the last few days the fact that I am actually pregnant and I will have to give birth in the not-so-distant future has just hit me like a ton of bricks. I have an anxiety disorder anyway so I am trying to be as informed as possible but not get too stressed out about it all. I am finding my lack of knowledge making me more anxious though.
I have been terrified about the prospect of an EMCS ever since a particularly horrific episode of One Born Every Minute where a lady was having an EMCS and her anasethetic suddenly started to wear off in the middle of the procedure, she was screaming and they put her to sleep straight away ofc. It might sound silly but that has never left me! But also there's the fact that recovery afterwards tends to longer/harder I guess (I know it's different for everyone ofc).
I know basically nothing about assisted deliveries. Obviously everyone wants to avoid an assisted delivery if possible but I always thought if the obstetrician recommends it then it must be for the best. However there seems to be a particular connection between vaginal/anal trauma and assisted deliveries and now I'm wondering whether I'd rather actually just go straight to a CS if I was in that position? I keep reading awful stories about people having long-term problems with vaginal/urethral/anal function and it's making me really anxious. However on the other hand I know that if it was an EMCS the damage might already be done by then anyway...
Anyone got any thoughts for me? There doesn't appear to be much research on outcomes or much guidance available online for me to think about.