Hi, sorry this dropped off my threads I'm on list!
To answer a few questions, I am only 8 weeks. I'd love to go to the Portland, but it's far too expensive, they told me about 20k.
I won't contemplate nhs after the treatment I had in my first pregnancy I'm afraid. I had a mmc in April this year and was going to try nhs at Queen Charlottes, but the midwives there were terrible to me all because I have a private GP, they were rude to me and her.
I will be having a second CS, so I want to see a consultant. With my son, on the nhs, I never even met my named consultant and only had the opportunity for a rushed meeting with a registra once.
My son had fluid on his lungs when he was born and no one noticed - his father and I knew there was something wrong, but they rushed the checks. We were sent to the ward with a baby who will wouldn't feed and was increasingly pale and weak.
I was begging and shouting for someone to please look at him and all that happened was a midwife threatened to call the police if I didn't stop. By the time his father physically grabbed a dr, both ds lungs had collapsed. He was in special care for four weeks and almost didn't survive.
I was also physically assaulted by a midwife during my pregnancy. I want to see a consultant - I won't go near midwives.
It was a horrific experience, and if I have to spend my life savings and spend the next five years living in a shoebox to avoid it happening again, it's worth it to me. I have suffered flashbacks for ten years, my experience literally ruined my life - I can't remember much of ds early months.
I can only afford three nights, max. But, after the second night last time I was sleeping in a chair in special care anyway or in my car outside. That wouldn't move me from the maternity ward - it's hell to be surrounded by other mothers and newborns when yours is in special care and might die. i overheard other women saying to the midwives that they were scared I would try to snatch a baby 
I only had one dose of pain relief - they were so crap in giving it out that I just got ex h to go to the chemist and get me co codamol instead. There was blood all over the bathrooms, it was horrific, so I walked out.
Thanks for all the stories - I know I am doing the right thing for me, it's good to hear that Dr Zhang is nice.