and I'm devastated. I can't explain it, I know she's not rejecting ME and she still loves me and knows I'm her Mummy, its just that the milk has changed and she's a big girl now and growing up and 20 months is a really long time and I've done really well, had to stop sooner or later and now is probably right but oh my god it is so sad. I can't remember the last time I cried so much.