It's been lovely reading the thread this evening, lots of nice stuff to read through it feels like. Just what I need. Not sure about the rats though... But how exciting boo!
I know I'm being silly about the engaging head thing, babies can arrive having not been engaged at all before labour especially in second time mums, and cinnamon is testament to this! I just don't really want him to be late and I guess his arrival is the end of dh being away and the hard bit that is now being done. I don't like him being away all the time, I miss him, and dd seems to be talking about him less this week which is sad.
Grandpa came over this evening to help with evening and bed. I was grateful since dd and I shared a bath while grandpa had a cuppa, but while I was showering dd did a poo in the water so I had to scramble her out, stick her on the loo (she had finished 
) tell her to stay still while I got all the toys out and rinsed my hair which was covered in shampoo, and she was crying and crying saying she was a bit little (?!) - I didn't shout at her of course, I was a bit frustrated since she usually tells me when she poos and this is bath poo number three... I'm sure she understands now poo is not for the bath... Control not quite there yet maybe. Grandpa was outside the door and so once all that was done he took her to get ready for bed (after I had out the poor thing crying under the shower to wash her off and wash her hair) and did stories until I was ready to come and put her to bed. And had cleaned the bath and put all the toys in some bleach...
Thanks for the well wishes for dd. She is worse this evening, wheezing even when not coughing 
she's never been like that. I've given her inhaler as best I can, but she is coughing her guts up in bed, it makes me so sad. I'm a bit worried about this wheezing, but I guess it's just a case of keeping a close eye. I'm sure she will wake up if she really can't breathe and is having to work hard * wrings hands with worry * I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Might camp on the sofa with the monitor, despite the fact that I usually wake well before dh I'm on my own and am panicking a little and not trusting myself if I was just next door in bed like normal. Will keep the monitor by my ear with the camera - but in my room it would probably wake her up too!!! I wonder if it is the smog cloud? Hope so cos then it will bloody well go away over the next day or so, though I know it takes time for the inflammation to settle.
Mum is asthmatic and has eczema - her eczema is much worse with sulphites (a type of preservative). She is on at us already about reducing the "chemicals" we let her have in the form of preservatives etc and now she is saying "well I know you don't think so but perhaps you should consider restricting them and thing more carefully about what you feed her" (she means things like non UK fruits, which must be covered in preservatives for their long trip - and are polluting the world and the air for our children which I agree with but haven't gathered enough responsibility to stand up to dh about this and should be ashamed of myself and eating organically when we can... which would mean making choices about how we spend money and it makes me feel very guilty to think that maybe I don't feed her as well as I should but do spend money on fancy coffees out with friends I must be a terrible mother)
My dh will be devastated if dd has asthma. I won't be too pleased either! But can accept it a bit more I think because it's in my genes and I had a bit of it when I was a kid and feel fine now. I think it's a spring tree pollen making things worse since she had a similar less severe issues at the same time last year when we first got her inhaler and it settled after 2-3 months.
sigh
Still having the odd non painful BH at least. I think I need to accept I'm probably just going to be uncomfortable until this baby/my body decides he is ready and I might not get the benefit of comfort from him moving down this time round. Then if he does it's a bonus.
Sorry, dampened the mood!