I have been avoiding everything to do with Fathers Day like the plague, I ordered 2 lots of flowers months ago, so I knew I would have something to take to both lakes. We are going to the lake where dh actually died tomorrow to take the flowers and then going on to the lake where we scattered his ashes , which is owned by a friend with the 2nd arrangement, so should be a little easier (if anything can be) ... I have been in pieces for weeks just walking past shops with fathers day cards in them and I broke down on Friday when I picked ds up from Playschool, everybody was collecting the fathers day cards their dc's had made - that started me off and hen when I got to ds's card it just said "to someone special" I actually collapsed on the floor in tears, sobbing I was so ... Anyway that's it really, just not sure how I will do it tomorrow - my mum & dad have gone on holiday, my sister has gone on holiday, so it's just the dc's and I, but we will get through the day, we have to, we have managed the last 9 months