I've lost 4 pregnancy's in the last year

[mybestfriend123]

That's it really, I've lost 4 pregnancy's in the last year.

I'm not sure it's fair to say I can grieve for them but I feel like I am.

I'm struggling a lot at the moment. A family member is in labour as we speak, I can't feel happy for them but I pretend.

I'm struggling so much and I'm so frightened I'll never be a mumm

I couldn't read and run I am so very sorry your going through this OP. It must be horrendous for you. Really wish I had some good advice. It's ok not to be ok and perfectly normal to find it hard watching others have babies.
Are they looking into the possible cause of your losses?

@namechange49583

Thank you, I think sometimes I just need reassurance it's okay to feel sad. I feel like everyone around me feels like I should just be " used to it" by now. Yes we are but I'm so worried we will never get answers..

My problem is I really want it all over with now, so having to wait for results and appointments is so painful😔

@mybestfriend123 oh OP I’m so sorry. This must be very hard for you. And don’t feel you have to be super happy for others, your only human!!! I really hope you get answers soon.

FWIW my mum had three MCs and then conceived twins naturally (my sister and I) so have faith xxxxx

So sorry @mybestfriend123 I do hope you get the answers soon and hopefully something can be done to prevent it happening again.
Unfortunately I think unless someone has been through pregnancy loss. People often don't understand how hard/upsetting it can be. To them they didn't see/feel/carry the baby. For you from the minute you got your bfp the baby was real.