Right i no i should be happy but its getting harder my daughter is going to die basically bafore she is 2 and shes 15 months now so yes im grieving as i really dont want this to happen . Today i thought she had stopped breathing and i was in a right mess. She has a illness called trisomy 13 which is genetics No one seems to understand why im grieving and not enjoyin her. I love having her here but its getting so hard.