I've had many different usernames on MN. Ive had a tough time in the last couple of years with my own little family but... We have ridden the storm and adversity.
I have struggled forever with the death of my big brother. He died aged 11 of the big C, I was 9. I always will struggle. The memories of his illness are awful to the point I can't remember the good. My young 9 year old self took so much...
I find it so hard to cope, I will never see my bestest bro again, we were so close. Love him forever. Hurts so bad. I'm a big 40 year old now!
The tears are flowing! How do we cope? I suppose I have, but so so painful.