We buried my dad a month ago today

[mytwoblackandwhitecats]

I'm so upset.

He died on the 10th May. I can't believe that as June turns into July, that we will have spent a full month with him dead, if that makes sense. It's hitting me he won't be coming home (he was on holiday when he died.)

He died last month and I am now at the hard part as the rest of my life will be spent without him and this is so, so unfair.

So sorry.

My Mum died in April so a little but ahead of you.

It's so shit, op

And for you to toast your Dad with x

I'm sorry about your Mum

It all feels so horrible just at the moment.

mytwo and tooper - very sorry about your recent sad news.

I don't know if this helps at all but I think you'll find that, by and by, the pain will ease. It all becomes easier to deal with and assimilate. It's a while ago since my mum and dad died (10 years and 15 years ago respectively) but I remember the raw, raw pain. As time went by, I still missed them (and I still do - very much) but the physical and the emotional pain receded. I probably wasn't very kind to myself - when dad died I went straight into a new and full time post while the children were still so small. It was madness.

Hope you can both take stock - take each day at a time and quite simply nurture yourselves and your families at this time.

Its so hard I know. I lost my dad 12 weeks ago. There are certain points that I overwhelmingly miss him. It comes over me suddenly when I not expecting it. Like last night we had 6 friends over for dinner and I couldn't concentrate on the conversation, I was zoned out thinking about my dad and a feeling of pure sadness in my heart. I could have cried there and then. I was missing him so much. I just want to pick up the phone to him and talk to him. There are so many things that happen in the day that he would be interested in hearing about. Sure I can tell him but its not the same when hes not there to talk back to me or give me advice.

So I know what you're going through. It sucks. It really sucks and its so not fair.

12 weeks is very recent as well LittlePink

I think one of the problems for me is I simply haven't let myself miss my dad too much, as I feel so sad if I start to think about it I choose not to as it would break me and I can't afford to break!

For Eleanor x