I thought it was supposed to get easier ? !

[crazyhamsterbackatlast]

Ten years ago today my Df died & it still hurts as much as it did then if not more .
I can't keep turning in to a complete wreck every year .

Why isn't it getting any easier ???

I'm sorry you feel so sad I lost my Df 15 years ago and understand what a huge loss it is. I have to say for me it has got easier and find it so much easier to remember the things that made me smile. Have you had any grief counseling, it may help to move on a bit if you can talk it through with a professional.

No not had any counselling

I think 10yrs is a bit of a milestone, so it's not unexpected that you'd feel as you do.

Next year is 30yrs since my Dad died and I've been mulling that over in my head a lot recently as it seems such a massive amount of time to have passed, yet seems like yesterday iykwim.

I can't imagine it been 30 years

I don't think it gets easier - but I do think you get used to it.

It still sucks though

I don't think it ever gets easier, you just become resigned to it for longer periods of time before it all comes flooding back.

I was in bed 2 hours ago but suddenly, from nowhere, I became overwhelmed with grief thinking about the last time I spoke to my dad and held his hand. I'm reliving our final 3 days together and the pain of it is still unbearable. I miss him just as much today as I did when he passed away two and a half years ago and don't expect that to ever go away.

When I get like this, I try to think of what my dad would say to me if he found me in this state and then my practical side kicks in. It's like he's still very much with me in spirit but I wish so much I could give him a hug. Be strong xx