My grandad died and it is just hitting me

[leobear]

My grandad died about a month ago. I can't stop crying today. The silly thing is, I feel a fraud - because I am in my 30s, have two children, live far away from my family, I feel like I am too old to be this upset about a Grandparent. I know that sounds silly, but I don't feel like anyone in real life will understand.

You are not a fraud.
I'm 33
I lost my Grandad last year two months after my wedding.
I think about him every day. I drive his car.

When the sadness gets me I imagine that he's watching me live my life from somewhere where he is happy and pain free. Death ends heartache for some but starts it for others.

He may not be with you in person but he will remain in your heart forever.

I call up memories of him helping me with cars.
The immortal words said to my Dad when they were doing DIY "oh it's terrible when you fetch it out and it doesn't work! So embarrassing!"

He was clearly a huge part of your life. Talk about him to your children. Keep his memory alive.

Hugs from me
I know how you feel

thank you so much, Breville. It just helps to know someone, somewhere, understands. He was the last of my grandparents, and it's also the feeling of the loss of a generation, and the memories, iykwim. So sad to feel I'm no longer a granddaughter.

I list my Pa in February. I am 28. One DC.
He and my Nan lived on the other side of the world. I made it there to the hospital within hours of him leaving us.
My Pa helped bring me and my sister up. He meant the world to me but for 8 years now I have been here and I was stupid not to write regularly. He was substantially deaf so phone was not a very good option. I have so much regret.
You are not a fraud. Grandparents are precious and they love you like no one else. Remember the good times. I like to imagine he's happy now, with all his mobility back, riding his bike to the beach with our little doggy leeroy.
Xx