We were told the week before xmas that the post mortem results for our baby were back and that they would try to give us the results before the new year so that mentally i could start the new year with a fresh slate and try and move on.
Basically we didn't get the results between xmas and new year and was told that we had an appointment with the consultant on 3rd Jan to go over the results. I then had a call to tell me that there is a backlog in pathology and the pathologist hasn't had time to dictate the results for his secretaty to type up. So my appointment has been cancelled and they have absolutely no idea how long the back log will take to clear.
I can be perfectly rational and understand that there is a process in the hospital and that everyone who is waiting for pm results is no more worthy of getting them sooner than anyone else etc etc...but I just cannot bear the thought that the results are in and I have known this for 2 weeks and it's STILL hanging over my head... but because of bloody admin my little boy is still lying waiting and we as a family cannot put an end to the horror that has been the last month. (there's also a backlog at the crematorium so we haven't been able to cremate him either). Bloody christmas and new year!
Sorry for rambling, just really needed to get it off my chest.