Looking for a handhold/any reassuring experiences others have had with similar circumstances as I'm currently feeling very overwhelmed.
At my 20 week scan I was told my placenta looked quite 'vascular' and the images were sent to the Fetal Medicine team for review. In my notes from the scan it says 'prominent hypervascularity at uterine/placental interface'. The sonographer told me not to panic or Google anything but of course I did and have spent the last 5 weeks worrying myself silly. The first thing that comes up when you look this up is Placenta Accreta Spectrum.
I had my DD 2.5 years ago and that pregnancy and delivery was completely straightforward - no complications and a vaginal delivery with no interventions and minimal blood loss. Unfortunately since my DD's birth I have had some unrelated health issues which resulted in me getting a diagnosis of Sjögren's Syndrome and Hypothyroidism which has meant that this pregnancy has been treated as high risk (as there's a chance my antibodies can cross the placenta and cause heart issues for the baby). I have been having fortnightly Doppler monitoring of the baby's heartbeat with the community midwives and luckily they seem healthy so far.
I'm just so panicked at the thought that I could have PAS; I haven't been able to sleep as I keep ruminating on the possibility of me dying in childbirth and leaving my children and husband without me. My head is swimming with all the things I need to prepare in case this is the case - how can I ever convey to my children how much I love them if I'm gone before they'll even remember me?
I don't fit any of the risk factors for PAS - no previous cesareans/uterine surgeries, no IVF pregnancies, I am under 35 etc etc. I just keep hoping that maybe it won't be PAS but I just don't know what else it could be. I know that I can't know anything until I've seen Fetal Medicine tomorrow but I just can't calm myself.
Has anyone had a similar experience and things turned out not as bleak as they feared? I am so afraid of dying or suffering a huge hemorrhage and not being able to take care of my baby. I love my family so much and I am so unbelievably frightened.