This is my first pregnancy and DH and I went for 12 week scan this morning. It hadn't really felt real until the sonographer said "There's baby" and I saw baby on the screen. But then she said there were abnormalities with the bowel and went very quiet whilst she took lots of measurements. It was clear to see on the screen that baby did not look like the perfect baby I had always envisioned 
. She went to find a consultant, but they were both in surgery, so we had to go home and wait for the head midwife to call.
When she did call she was lovely, but said on top of the bowel abnormality, baby was high risk for Down's Syndrome. The consultant wants to scan me himself but not until Monday.
Monday is so far away and I have cried all day and just feel so sad. DH has been great, but we are both preparing for the worst.
I just need a bit of hand holding I guess. This was not the day I thought it was going to be