Hi all. I came off antidepressants as I started to forget to take them and realised I no longer needed them . That was autumn last year . However I am starting to have really low thoughts and not sure if it's because of my hormones on and am perimenopausal. I have had ongoing problems for 4 years down below . Vagina itching. Had tests , blood tests, examinations and they think it's some sort contact dermatitis . I also found out latest in September I had hpv but no abnormal cells. I got really upset and dr reassured me it was so common that most people have it at some point . I just feel so feel tearful . I am no good to my kids when I am like this . I am dreading my next smear later this year as I worry there will be abnormal cells. I know they can be treated. I am wondering if hrt may help me down below and stop these dark thoughts.