Struggling with post natal ptsd 8 months after

[Rhaych2003]

Really long induction process due to gd. Sons heart rate dropping throughout the process, they did nothing. Suddenly needed an epsiotomy as sons heart rate dropped drastically last minute and they needed him out asap. Whole birth felt rushed as we had to wait ages for a room on labour ward due to being the busiest day of the year. Got a huge hematoma complication on the stitch line, very painful recovery. Partner had to leave not long after birth due to covid.

at my post natal check up with gp I got diagnosed with ptsd and told to contact talking therapies or call bsck for anti depressants

8 months later and I still think of the birth everyday and get depressed, even when I’m not purposely thinking about it.

i know a lot of women go through this it just isn’t spoken about. I’ve heard really good things about EMDR therapy for post natal PTSD, can anyone recommend a decent treatment??

I still struggle to speak about the birth in person to my partner so not sure if therapy would be worth while yet.

Please no judgemental or nasty comments, last time I asked for advice on here surrounding the birth I was plagued by trolls.

You poor thing, that does sound awful.

Have you been in touch with the Birth Trauma Association at all? It was set up by women who've experienced similar births to you. There's a list of therapists who specialise in PSTD from birth.

How are you now @Rhaych2003? Have you managed to find any support?