God, why do I feel so sad listening to 80s music?
I spent yesterday evening listening to 3 hours of all the songs I either loved and played or just heard around me (radio, TOTP, Sunday charts etc.) whilst I went through my teen years.
It started by me putting Through The Barricades song (song not album) to play on Amazon music, and then it went on a random play list of all the music from around that time. It was so good, it was choosing all the music that I loved. Every other song that came on I was thinking "Oh I loved this song!" And I couldn't stop listening, it was all so nostalgic. I had a lovely evening listening to it all, honestly haven't heard or played those songs for decades.
But suddenly, when I went to bed, from out of nowhere I felt so incredibly sad. I'd had a lovely day so I couldn't understand why. And I still feel a bit sad this morning. I can't shake this sadness off. It's taken me right back to how I felt all through my teenage years, when life felt really good. When I had my whole life ahead of me, and life felt so easy back then, and I felt like anything was possible in my big, long future. Through my teens I felt invincible and strong and full of hope and aspiration. I had a strong sense of starting out in this adventure of life. The 80s were an amazing time to be a teenager. I know everyone says that about whichever era they grew up in. But my God, the 80s were a good time.
And here I am at 52 feeling like life is so much harder now, my hopes and dreams didn't work out, I'm a different person now to how I was then, life has changed and re-shaped me, I don't have that optimistic excitement for the life ahead of me like I had then, and I no longer have my whole entire life stretching out ahead of me.
I feel very melancholy. This music has churned up feelings and emotions deep inside me tbat I didn't even realise were there. Yet I felt right as rain and perfectly happy yesterday afternoon before listening to it all!
(If you're reading and you're under 50, you probably won't get this!😂)