I'm not really able to say much but vaguely, after 12+ years in a permanent role at my company, there is likely to be a restructuring which would mean I will likely be made redundant.
It's mentally been very difficult to come to terms with because whilst it wasn't the perfect job and it's a large organisation (1100+ employees), I knew the job, the processes and most importantly, the people well and had built good relationships and felt stable. Also, the salary is decent (by local standards, I'm not in the UK), we have a hybrid work schedule which I love and isn't so easy to find in my country and good benefits (leave entitlement, pension, private health insurance etc).
On the other hand, growth was limited and the usual issues of favouritism etc do exist here so I likely wouldn't have been progressing anytime if things stayed the same. The workload is also very high and I regularly work longer hours without overtime etc.
My anxiety is through the roof and sleep, appetite, etc is poor. I am ruminating and catastrophising and have had to take Xanax to calm down due to the physical toll (racing pulse, elevated BP, nausea etc).
I'm trying to find a silver lining to all of this I suppose and mentally toughen myself up for what is to come. The job market is terrible locally and I'm honestly just terrified. I'm also starting to realise I don't want to work in corporate till I'm 60 and I really don't enjoy my field anymore.
Any stories of hope from persons who have been through this? Did you find a better job? Pivoted into something you enjoyed more? Made your career less of your identity? Appreciate any and all stories. Ty 🙏
YABU - I didn't find anything better, I wish I stayed in my old job.
YANBU - Life improved. I got a better job/switched careers and much happier now.