I was putting the decorations back in the attic.
Everything in the attic is in neat matching boxes that stack tidyly together. I like things in boxes.
After some spectacularly crappy parenting today (by me), my tidy attic with it's plastic boxes made me feel calm.
Tomorrow I will have to deal with more fallout from my crappy parenting so may have to just go and sit in the attic and be soothed.