AIBU, death of an ex

[BA25]

How is the death of an ex affecting me so much? He was my first love and drank himself to death because he couldn’t get over our break up. He was older than me and always such a massive support in my life. This is 25 years later and I still can’t come to terms with it. I miss him so much. What is wrong with me?

In my experience people who suffer from addiction usually have pretty bad childhoods. I doubt it was because of a break up that he turned to alcohol. It’s sad 😔