Sorry if this is a bit long but me and my partner have been together 4 years and have 2 kids together. From very early into the relationship I saw he was searching woman twerking or a few things on YouTube and after a lot of big rows he swore it would stop etc, it ruined my self confidence but after a bit of time I managed to get past it. I went on the laptop a couple of weeks ago and saw months worth of YouTube videos of women, I'm a size 8, small bum small boobs and as you can imagine he isn't searching anything that is anything even similar to my body. I feel broken tbh, after having babies your self confidence is pretty shot anyway but I've never let it ruin our sex life, I've never said no or that I'm too tired etc but it seems he is choosing watching those while I'm sat downstairs looking after the children.
AIBU to feel like this should not be how it is or is this pretty normal behaviour and I need to just get over it?