I used to dry myself with toilet roll. I was so worried about bacteria from a towel that tissue was the only thing I would use. It made me so unhappy and ashamed and if I ever went on holiday I would take my own with me. Thankfully I have recovered a lot now but it’s something I would never share IRL as I think I would be massively judged, although I consider it to have been part of a wider illness/mental health issue.