Hi my bf who I first met at school age 16 and had a difficult life pretended to hold a sharp knife to my throat and go upstairs with him. I’d been helping unpack a new tv and he’d been using the knife for the packing. It made me feel unhappy as we’ve had incidents of him hitting out years ago. Also if it was a joke what a weird sense of humour. Also he’s been pressuring me a lot lately which’s made me distance myself. He is under a lot of stress as he’s going hospital next week for surgery. The thing is I’d previously said he could stay with me afterwards but now I don’t feel I can back out??