Cost of living is so hard. Childcare fees so expensive. Sharing a bed with my son as a lodger and have been since he was a baby. No chance of getting a council flat. Have ptsd from previous donestic abuse relationship. Sons abusive dad is dragging me through court to get access. I have OCD and anxiety. Want to go off sick for a big but can't due to work craziness and would be leaving team in the lurch plus am applying for much needed promotion and this would definitely damage my chances. I cry for approx 2 hours a day. I don't know what to do anymore.