Where is the joy?

[leomzo]

I either wake up at 6 and spend the day shattered trying to entertain my toddler all day indoors , maybe a wet walk thrown in.

Or I spend my day at work in hell feeling like I could quit all day.

It seems I am happy in neither I hate my job but my "days off"I can't relax either .

I'm shattered

I appreciate that feeling! Did you hate your job pre-pandemic too? Could you look for something else? In the meantime, definitely try to have proper time for you where you aren't responsible for the toddler so you can relax and decompress. DH and I alternate bedtime so I always look forward to the evenings when I can have a bath or read something while he does the stories