TW: To wonder what could help me?

[Hurting888]

I have this one friend that I’m really emotionally attached to, I couldn’t cope with losing him as a friend or losing him forever if he died, I know that’s an unhealthy attachment style but my whole reason to live is based his presence in my life and how he views me. Does anyone understand what I mean? What could help me?

I understand what you mean. I have felt this way about people before, I have BPD and it is not uncommon for people with the diagnosis to focus on a single person. If you Google ‘BPD favourite person’ you can find plenty of articles about it. Understanding my BPD and attachment style has helped me somewhat to move away from this attachment model although I do still tend to place too much focus on specific attachments.