To feel sad that I have to work full time?

[Dranktoomuchpepsi]

I have 1 DC. He will always be my only. He has suspected ASD so quite a few appointments etc. He's utterly gorgeous and I love being with him

However, it has become very apparent that in order for us to save for a mortgage, I need to return to work full time. I currently do 2 days a week.

My type of job only really 'pays out' for full time. Let's say 30k. To do something a bit similar, but part time, you wouldn't get 30k pro rata. You'd get about 18k Pro rata!

So a big jump. AIBU just to feel a bit sad about it all? It isn't even about the current time. Just thinking of when DS starts school. I won't be there to pick him up. I loved my mum picking me up and always felt a bit sad for those who's parents weren't there at pick up it's just an early memory I have.

I’d say give it a go FT and see how it goes. I have two children with Sen and it’s only in the last year I’ve gone back to work PT around school hours. Neither of my two children have coped with any childcare. So my options work wise have been incredibly limited. See how it goes.