Okay so me and my boyfriend have been together on and off for about 2 years. He has a foot, heel and Ball busting fetishism which I've never had a problem with but I've found out he's been searching for images of celebrities with heels and degrading quotes like 'crush his balls' 'youre not a man, I'm going to make you mine'
I'm certainly not a dominant person in bed but I am not opposed to it either, I feel I am open minded.
I've given him foot jobs and let him suck my toes, use them during sex etc. I don't feel I haven't tried to accommodate his need.
I don't wear heels very much and he's openly expressed he would like it if I did more often (but to me that defies the point of wearing what I want)
He wasn't open about the pictures he was oogling. When I questioned him why do you need to search this? His answer was 'he doesn't remember' doing it' lol alarm bells?
What's even worse, we have a child together, unfortunately she passed away at a day old and he was in hospital with me searching for them pictures 3 DAYS after her death, that feels the most utterly disrespectful disgusting behaviour of it all. I was in pain (csection baby) and greiving, he was looking for sexual gratification????!!!!
Funny thing is I wouldn't have a problem getting on the kinky side, but he doesn't seem interested or inquire about mine. Feels like I give and he takes. I don't want to stop his fetish, but he hasn't been open enough with me
Is there any relationship worth saving ?though I think I may of answered this for myself after writing this😣